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hello there internet :)

i know, i know, it's been ages, and i'm sorry about the large gap in between posts, but unfortunately it was for a few personal, irritating reasons. (and just may i say, for the lawyer who is currently stalking my LJ? eat me. no, srsly, kiss my ass and find someone else to bother. i'm through being concerned over your problems. eat a bag of dicks.)

so anyway, in all better news, things have been pretty well for me :) i'll recap later, this post happens to be for the purpose of a proposal of sorts.

most of you who know me, also know that i avoid doing commissions at all costs. not because i hate them, per se, i actually quite enjoying drawing for others, but because i feel bad charging for it and can be fairly lame when it comes to finishing them. now i know, boo hoo, what an issue, but srsly, i have a hard time with this sometimes, so therefore i avoid it.

that being said, one of my oldest and most bestest friends is going through horrible financial issues right now, and nothing seems to be getting any better anytime soon :( she lost her job last year, is in debt up to her ears, shares the deed of a house with a husband she's trying to divorce who also has no job and no money, and she's trying to be in school at the same time.
yikes.
i hate seeing what life is doing to her right now, especially since i've been so blessed recently. tho despite being poor myself, i don't have a money sucking anchor of a husband, crazy debt or a severely low paying job like she does. she's living with my mother, the poor thing.

anyway, tl;dr, i'm going to try doing what i can by seeing if there is any interest in art commissions out there. i'm talking to all my fellow fangirls out there in LJ land, would any of you be interested in commissioning me for art? i could do sketches, inked, full color, multiple characters (not so great with backgrounds), multiple fandoms, slash, fluff, (any nc-17 stuff would have to be negotiated to see if i can do it, but you're welcome to ask) and original characters with good descriptions/references. srsly, try me.

is there any interest at all? i'm also willing to offer prints of any of my existing stuff. i have art throughout a few different fandoms of supernatural, fullmetal alchemist, sailor moon, and a ton of original angel characters.

if there IS an interest, i can lay out pricing and reasonable timelines for both the drawings and the prints, but i'd like to know i could actually pull this off reasonably. I really, REALLY want to help my friend, but without commissions, i don't have much to give :( i don't mean to use the sympathy card, if really, this is the first time i've ever truly asked, but it really is for a friend in need. i think that's worth a little expended effort on my behalf.

what say you? commission me so i can help my friend? anyone? :3

it all makes sense, really

1. Tomorrow, wedding.
2. Day after that, the world.
3. ????
4. profit.

wishing you were somehow...

if i could have one day to see you; to hear your voice and watch you smile, i would wish it was fifteen days from now. i wouldn't have been getting married six years ago obviously, but i wish you could have been there anyway.
i don't get to walk down the aisle with you, and the thought hurts so much that my chest aches, but your sons are picking up the slack, so don't worry :3

another year gone, still the single most horrible day of my life to date, and still i miss you with all of my heart <3

it's time to make March a better anniversary.

and then there was one

geezus i need therapy x_x disappointing doesn't even begin to describe this crap lately.

Tomorrow is going to be awesome. i so declare it. (gawd it better be. pleeeeeez be)
new body, new home, new relationship, new life, and now a new job. i really am starting over. wth.

but hey, i'm drawing again. woo!

wedding is in 19 days. eeeeeek.

...

so who locked their keys in the car and had to wait in the parking garage for an hour after a ten hour shift today?

oh yeah, that was me. fml.

at least the guy was nice enough to unlock the car without damage. but he took all my christmas money with him when he left.
hope everyone likes crocheted scarves.

You'd think I was happy about this...

So. My wedding dress came in the mail today. (fortuitously on a day when I was visiting my mom since it was sent to her)
and it's gorgeous and exactly what I was hoping for. Better than, even, since the pics did not do it justice.
Had it custom made from scratch, my specific measurements and everything.

Cept it doesn't fit.

Looooooool.

So that weight I hadn't thought I'd lost in the canyon? It was in inches apparently.
CAAALL THE SEAMSTRESSSSSS.

Also, they were supposed to send me three yards of fabric to match the dress so I could make a veil.
They sent me three yards of trim.

I wore it on my head anyway.
a great big fancy hearted and brilliant THANKYOU to everyone who assisted me in my last journal post <3 srsly, i asked, and you guys delivered. soooo much appreciation as i am now caught up. with like, everything. not that there was much, but hey, i'm entertained.
so yeah :3 you guys rock socks.

and hot damn, Dean. what's with the whole being a dick to Cas thing? dude. he's not your pet. quit it. Cas? Smack a bitch. learned him last time.
and i don't care what anyone says, i still <3 cute little souless Sam. (cuz we didn't see that coming? pfft) the apathy is actually quite amusing and really well played.
yay show!

in other news...
after spending two weeks in the wilderness, under endless skies and enormous walls of rock with no roads, no technology and no white sound....now? its NOISE.OVERLOAD. GAH.

not even kidding, i thought i was going to crawl out of my skin at work today. there was just...so.much.SOUND. and this is all normal sound! for here, at least, something i've long gotten used to living in this horrible city. nothing was out of the ordinary except for me.
but sweet jesus was it difficult, and more than a little anxiety inducing. i wanted to stuff cotton in my ears and call it a day.

by the time i got to the end of my ten hour shift, they started up the earth shaking machine vacuum cleaners and i had just had it. i was out, faster than i'd like to admit. augh, wtfkillmenow. sirens in the parking lot, cars and honking and echoes and highways and meowing and neighbors and just...sdghjkalsdgkjhg.

i'm gonna acclimate, i do know this (sooner rather than later plz) but damn does it make me miss the canyon even more now. not that i, you know, wanna live there or anything...but damn.
i pity my race. no wonder we can't really hear things anymore.

and with that, i'm going to go sound proof my semi-dark yet somehow yellow-lit room and bury myself in blankets until my ears stop ringing.
i really miss all those stars ;.;

vacay report to come, as soon as i get my camera from teh molly. i know i've got some awesome pics so if anyone is the least bit interested, feel free to stick around :3
but yeah, now. noise. sucks out loud.

SPN???

OH HAI EVERYBODY

yeah, so...obviously, i am no longer at the bottom of the grand canyon. which is where i have been for the past two weeks. wilderness. middle of nowhere. horror movie fodder. you get the picture. BUT IT WAS AWESOME THO. just sayin.
but anywho, i survived the Colorado River (WOO!) and tho i didn't really miss the internet all that much, i am happy to have it again.

THAT BEING SAID...to all of my Supernatural buddies out there *eyeballs* you know who you are. i am incredibly reluctant to meander through LJ right now until i catch up on the last three eps. so, this is a call out for assistance please. anybody willing to give me some links? y/y? please pretty please? the last ep i saw was Weekend at Bobby's, so the three after that is what i'm missing.
HELP YOU GUYS. YER MA ONLEE HOPE.

so...otherwise...did i miss anything important? <.< >.> (y'know, other than spoilers. dnw.)
cause yeah. wilderness. peeing in a river. fuck yeah.

river or bust

aaaaaaand i'm off to vegas. right now.
then headed to the grand canyon for this ten day river trip up the colorado 8D

a year ago, i wouldn't have even dreamed of being able to do this.

SEE YOU BITCHES NEXT MONTH. STAY CLASSY TIL I GET BACK!

really, universe?

1. Pull on socks
2. Not see the cat that suddenly chose that moment to lay under your raised foot
3. Trip on cat
4. Ram toe into floor trying to stay standing (equivalent of basically kicking a wall with no shoes)
5. Scream expletives
6. ?????
7. Profit?


ugh. OW. owowowowowow.
if i had broken my toe, i'd have killed that cat. cute and fluffy or not. two weeks before i leave for the grand canyon and breaking my feet is VERY NOT COOL.

iz all swollen and achy tho ;__;

in other news, last night was my first nyquil free night in six days. wow, october. you're like, my favorite month. why you do dis?