scans from my notebook that i use for notes at work. I don't do well in meetings, so i have to doodle. HAVE TO. otherwise i fall asleep, or stare and weird people out as i try not to fall asleep. it's a vicious cycle, really.
THIS IS WHY NOTHING GETS DONE.
i used to do this ALL THE TIME in school. i kinda miss it.

( here thar be oogly doodles )

lol, i got nuthin.
just trying to keep my spirits up when the fights with the doctors and the insurance is sure as hell getting me down :( *deep breaths* must.not.kill.people.through.phone.
this weekend is gonna be nutz x_x

SOMEONE SUGGEST A DOODLE.

Spent the 4th of July with psychosako and our Bellydancing troupe. we were surrounded by people setting off fireworks for like, miles around. yummy food, awesome people. no crowded, crazy DC metro.
:D

i signed up to do the Dean/Cas anonymous fic exchange, and of COURSE they gave me someone who was really awesome to write for that i am INCREDIBLY INTIMIDATED BY. gawdamnitall.
gonna do it anyway. as soon as i grow some balls.
D:

Stein played with my desktop for a bit (cleaned it mostly) and i can at least play L4D again with only the slightest bit of hiccups. as opposed to how bad it was before.
i keel zombays! and asplode ma teemates!
:D

i haven't been able to draw all weekend -.- as much as i wanted to. even writing has been sparse. i think i sapped out my muse. *slaps her cheek*
D:

My little brother's fiancé (my soon to be sister in law) called me tonight to confirm the details for their engagement party two weeks from now. coo, family weekend it is.
then she asked me to be a bridesmaid ;___;
*sniffs* uh...YES.
:D

chipped a DAMN TOOTH. on potato chips DX
aaaarrrrrggggghhhhh so.not.cool.
D:

COPIC CAME OUT WITH 12 NEW MARKERS.
*FLAIL*


( I know I'm a year late, but... )

lol, i suck.
so my weekend basically consisted of me switching between being stunted for drawing, to being stunted for writing. i swear i can't have one with the other XP
that, and i totally marathoned myself out after the whole 45k words in a single weekend thing. yikes.
i'm not blaming that for my being sick or anything, but i think i rockem sockemed my muse around just a bit. sorry bout that darlin

thankfully, i am feeling MUCH better! woo! and am glad to be going back to work after missing most of last week and feeling like a LUMP. like a stuffed up, grumpy achy freezing lump.
still can't get myself to eat all that much tho. weird.

and i also drew things! wewt. scoured through all my netflix movies in a day along with the new Friday The 13th and the first Starship Troopers. SHUTUP, i love that movie! i can't recall the last time i went movie shopping, so that was fun :3

not that i'm insinuating that anything doodled was good at all, but it was fun and good practice.
i seem to be able to draw nothing anatomically correct atm aside from chibis tho (which is ironic, and counter productive when you think about it) but oh well.
supernatural scribbles, fyi. two of them are based off of that crazy long story i did.

( here, have some art )

ok, bed for reals now. not that i haven't been sleeping recently like i was preparing for the spring, but sleep is good.

gawd, i hate being sick x_x

i just stared at my f-list for ten minutes trying to figure out why i couldn't see any of the communities before i remembered i'd set it that way.
i can't even read anything right now without it all jumbling into one big run on sentence in my head.

*blows nose* GET OUT. I NEED THE SPACE.

MY REARVIEW MIRROR FELL OFF IN MY CAR.
o______o

IT JUST FELL.OFF.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT COULD HAPPEN.

Happy Father's day out there to all of my buddy's daddys that i have met and love <3
have an awesome day! :D

*sigh*

ok, as a note from an artist here, to anyone else who thinks they'd like to put some crazy tron-based, bizarre looking alchemical symbol on a t-shirt, please run yourself through a few things first before you make your final decision. I know your guild just HAS to have them in order to be more proficiently professional and show off your dice rolling pride, but still. take a moment.

your WOW buddies and your mom probably thought it was cool, but think to yourself how many times you're going to be wearing this outside of the basement.

if its drawn by hand, USE A RULER. if you traced it, FOLLOW THE LINES.

use a compass if you want that many circles. never used one? google it. it's SO EASY. hell, trace around one of those empty dew cans if you need to.

if it's meant to be symmetrical looking, then bloody well make it symmetrical.

don't scan it as a bitmap, holy hell, especially when there's both ink AND pencil still in the design. the blocks, sweet zombie jesus, the blocks x_x my eyes!.

and for god's sake, if you see a mistake in it, don't correct it in MSpaint. you're just making it worse.


ugh, that took way longer to redraw than it should have XP cleaning up some little kids drawing with lines all over the place is all well and fine, but i hate when i get some piece of art from a self righteous wannabe that's crazy picky with 'my artz is bestest' and trying to tell me what to do like i don't already know -.- *hissss*

happy friday! /bitter

AWESOME DAY IS NOW AWESOME. \O/

THANK YOU, DAY. DO CARRY ON.
*gleeee*

I am officially killing all of my poor plants =__=

damnit. there just isn't enough sunlight coming into my room and i can't put them out in the apartment cause Christie's kitties will devour them.
*sigh*
i can't tell which is more cruel. death by starvation or death by cat. :(

I'm actually starting to gain some respect for Twitter.
not because i want to be uselessly dull on it, but because of how its fitting into the current issues in Iran.
gogo Iran-anon.

finally got around to getting Left4Dead, only to play a day's worth before my computer suddenly won't play it anymore ;.; such a damn tease. if only my brothers were nearby enough to fix it.



I was just working on a redraw for a shirt that i thought was a funny looking little monster thing until i realized it was actually China.

i need more sleep.

sjkgl;awkejglf;akewfsonofaBITCH

i KNEW i shouldn't have looked it up. iknewitiknewitiknewit!
damnitalltohell.
there were two Hard Rock Cafes in England. TWO.
i got the london one but there was also one in manchester!!1!
*sobs unreasonably*


fuckshitcunt
now i gotta go back.

*sticks out thumb*
it was RIGHT THERE too ;__;


for those that are confused and probably offended by this rage, i collect the pins from these restaurants. and its rare for me to snag one out of country as i ONLY collect the ones i've been to, as an agonizing rule. damn my ignorance.

Ok, so.
Now that I've had a couple of days to let it all sit and stew, I think I can actually do a decent con report. Or decent enough. Like I've said previously, and let me just reiterate this, there is going to be a -lot- that I leave out.

I'd love comments and I do not mind answering questions concerning my weekend, but I will not be answering anything when it comes to personal info of the actors or anyone else I was with. Srsly, it's not worth getting worked up over and I'm not budging, so get over it.
I do have some pictures I can post of my trip in general and a couple from the bustrip, but it will be minimal. please do not ask for more, as i've gone through them very carefully and considered what should or should not be online for specific reasons.

Keep in mind that this is my personal journal, not a fanblog, a magblog or anything of the sort. I'm focusing on the ME here, cause i can and damn well should since it's MY JOURNAL.

Gawd, this is nutz that i have to write that. wth.

( blah blah blah, get on with it already )

( Friday )

I'm sure i'll forget about some things as i go here, so may go back to fill them in later when i remember. there was just so much x_x

but holy crap that was long-winded. tl;dr much? if you got this far, you must be bored. or really amused.
*hands you popcorn*

More to come once i pull together Saturday! it won't be as long, promise.

hello to new people!! you guys are in for a very boring time, sorry bout that XD i'm really not that interesting, promise.

I just slept for about twelve hours x__x
anyone know what day it is? i lost track last week.

my room is an amazing mess *laughs* it looks like i got home from vacation and just exploded.
feels like it too.

gonna have to go out eventually today and get some food, seeing as i have none. not that i'm really all that hungry. going for five days while barely eating and running all over the place can do that to you, lol. i told myself before the trip that all that dieting was so that i could eat whatever in the UK and enjoy myself, right?
totally lost five pounds while i was there. no wonder the plane seat was more comfortable on the way back. oops?

ugh, i need to start swearing off large fluffy kitties q.q my poor eyes and lungs.

Also need to go out and find myself a good 11x14 frame. i'm so proud of this picture, and that's kinda rare for me. not so much because i think it was done well, as to what it now represents to me <3 This is the picture that will be sent out to every one of the Asylum Attendees/Guests (or so i'm told, here's hoping) as it was supposed to be in the registration packets to begin with. Stupid printer was stupid, which is why they didn't arrive in time.

( Here it is, all signed and stuff, if anyone is interested )

I still can't stop smiling. it's making my face hurt but i don't care XD
now for some small shopping, lotso cleaning, and writing. probably not in that order.

...
w.t.f.

did that all srsly just happen?
i mean...i didn't dream it, right? the past three days DID happen, right?

...
now that it's sunday night, and i finally have the chance to sit down and breatheat and process everything that i was lucky enough to do this weekend...i don't think i can wrap my head around it.

whatever i did to deserve the last few days, i am so incredibly grateful <3
so.friggen.tired.

( some thoughts/goings on )

there's so much that i will never be able to tell *laughs* i owe them all that much.
my life is so strange. XD

::EDIT::
LOL, i found this crazy blurry picture through tracy_loo_who's con post. that blotch of maroon back behind the left side of Matt? (if the pic was vertical) yeah, that's me X)
ignore that caption tho, the dude on the right is Josh, Amy's bf X) Matt was there with his fiance, not his brother. this sneaky photographer thinks they captured something great, but really, at that moment we were all comparing our freaky and gross double jointed talents. hollywood is all glamour, i tell you.

AUUUUGGGHHHH.

so the reason my printer hasn't been working for the past three weeks?
THE USB CHORD WAS PLUGGED INTO THE WRONG HOLE.
THE WRONG FUCKING HOLE.

ashdgjlakjeghawijevsonofabitch!
so much aggravation that could have been avoided if i'd just AIMED correctly.
deeeeeaaaaatttthhhh

for my reference, totally update-able
(or if anyone else can think of something i'm missing, cause lord knows i'm not thinking straight.)

-DON'T PANIC
-get laptop/camera from sako
-pack. try to use the smaller suitcase if you can.
-pull together whatever sketchbooks/art stuff you're taking (YOU NEED ERASERS. GET THEM)
-email your mother every number/address/plane time you can think of, or you know you'll never hear the end of it.
-give rent/cable checks to Christie
-remember to eat
-scribble down/print out all the addresses and info you'll need.
-water your poor plants
-sew up your poor shoe
-do NOT forget the bunny hats
-do NOT forget to take that pic from the wall
-charge your ipod/laptop/phone/DS and anything else that needs it
-make sure you've got ittybitty with you in case you need those art files again
-passport!!!1!
-finish the sailormoon pics if you can
-call Kat
-RELAX

i'm debating whether or not i should actually sleep tonight, since that may increase my chances of sleeping on the plane :\ not sure about that one, since there's a possibility i won't sleep regardless -.- then that would be two nights of wtf. lame.
here's hopin i'm not sleepin on the streets once i'm there! 8D tho i hear they're cleaner than ours.

x__x
Memorial Day weekend. and I've done more the past three days than i have in weeks. yikes.
on the plus side, lots of awesome stuff went down and i got outta the housemy head for some good times.
on the not so plus side, i feel pretty ill XP

on Saturday I went with psychosako to the VA Ren Fair. which is small, but cute, out in the middle of nowhere virginia. The most fun was had with her friends, however, half of which are in the belly dancing troupe that i've been involved with recently <3
i got some SUN. holy shit. my arms are a slightly darker shade of greenish-tan now, as opposed to the veiny pale i've been for the past two years. win.

Sunday I got to see Terminator: Salvation.
If you like the series, see it. I was not disappointed. the crazy plot holes from the first three were once again amusingly obvious even in this 4th installment, but oh well. robots kill all humans without reason gets old fast, so i was just in it for the pretty. awesome visual effects, tho the young digi-arnold was slightly creepy. ok, more than slightly.
ya know, i like christian bale, but the dude needs to try something different. musicals perhaps? i loved newsies, shutup :D

Monday was sleep in and then picnic day. I went with happytemplar, psychosako and Mama!Rachel out with happytemplar's family for some bbq fun. Which was actually a lot more fun than i thought it would be (no offense Molly, i've just been frazzled lately) with good food, good company and HOLY SHIT DOWNPOUR. we got rained on like crazy and ended up completely drenched to the bone. Cold and soggy, we all bundled up in borrowed clothes and towels to dry off at the Stackwicks as the storm passed through. The absurdity of it all just made me laugh. It was almost refreshing X)

i've got two days til my plane leaves for europe.
Finally finished the inks on the sailor moon busts for ssfseiyakou and trying my damndest to get them colored before i leave x_x atleast the coloring is all thats left.
the asylum guys got the art. so all is (hopefully) well on that front. here's hoping i actually have a hotel room and conbadge to go to. aaaaauuuugggghhh

we had such awesome food this afternoon for lunch, but i spent the rest of the day feeling nauseated and have been unable to eat anything more, even if i wanted to. my nerves will one day be the death of me. here's hoping i can sleep this off and it doesn't get worse...but methinks that'll be wishful thinking until i'm in the air. *cry*

i am going to be useless at work tomorrow, damnit.

Yesterday it was brought up in idle conversation with my friend Kat that I couldn't remember the last time I had been to Hagerstown. Or to my Mother's.
Then she said December.
And I realized she was right.

:(

The only spoilers here will be if you know as much about theological history as I do. Especially when it concerns Judeo/Catholic/Christian history in Rome.
*EDIT* WARNING. SPOILERS IN COMMENTS (/edit)

so then, only two things.
*ahem*

Ewan
both in a slimming, black priest outfit and then all beat up and bruised?
THANKYOUVERYMUCH. IT IS, AND ALWAYS WILL BE APPRECIATED.

Plot
...

WHUT
W...T...F?
really? srsly?
*facepalm*

To anyone out there who is easily swayed into believing what they hear and see about religion from movies and television, do yourselves a favor and DON'T TAKE THIS ONE SERIOUSLY. OPEN A BOOK. IN FACT, OPEN MANY.

on the other hand...Ewan.
nomnomnomnom X3
thankfully, the beautiful Scotsman just barely overshadows the fact that Dan Brown makes up religious history as he goes. and badly, i might add. geezus man, did you research ANYTHING?!

Ok, so I went and saw Star Trek a second time last night, but this time in IMAX.
and wow what a difference it makes <3
I tell you one thing, tho, if you are even the slightest bit afraid of heights? watch it in the normal theater, or at eventually at home. I have no problem with heights whatsoever and even I got a little bit of vertigo at some parts x.x them newfangled cameras is crazy.

So, second time seeing spoilers!
( hey, this star trek thing is srs bzns )

all in all, wonderful to see again. and with wonderful company :3 i am so owning this movie when it comes out and THERE'D BETTER BE EXTRAS. s'all i'm sayin.
this makes me want to watch the other movies again, but all i own is from Generations on up. woe ;.;

i keep swatting my fingers to keep from joining any slash star trek communites DX augh, man. this shouldn't be this difficult to NOT do x.x the SPN fandom is crazy enough with their incest and mpreg slash XP *gags* who knows how bad StarTrek porn could get. (or how good. DAMNIT.)

which speaking of, season finale of Supernatural tonight :3 LET THE WANK BEGIN! \O/
rudelad737 and i are doing burgers and beer in true SPN fashion for the big blowout. if anyone else wants to come, just gimme a call :D the more the merrier!
hey fauxfaia! you alive???!

oh, and I finally got to see the House finale. and srsly, guys, you were actually surprised by that ending? I mean...srsly? I totally saw that coming.

thus i have geeked out my quota for the year. scuse me while i go back to drawing SailorMoon and SPN angel slash XD (NOT TOGETHER.yikes)